Second Thoughts

I hate second thoughts. They scare me. I am so worried about doing this nursing thing...I first have to be accepted to the program. So why am I getting ahead of myself. Why don't I just worry about it when I get the letter saying that I have been accepted?
Something must be done though, as I am withering away at my current job. Mush is forming in my head. I have nightmares about my job quite often. I have lost all motivation to do anything at work. It is horrible. Although, I do have a job and a nice salary, so what am I complaining about?? That's just me, the complainer!
But really, for me to be happy, I need a lot of change in my work environment. I can't do the same thing over and over and over and be happy about it. It really gets old. I do have an interest in helping people and health and women's health...I am just not keen on doing the grunt nasty work...which I don't even think that I will have to do most days. I am so scared of the unknown.
I won't worry about it until I get the acceptance letter.