Dark Clouds and The Abyss
I am in my "I want to escape the world and hide in a hole" mode. The problem with that mode is that there is never the option of escaping and hiding in a hole unless you want to lose your job or you have weeks of vacation stacked up which I do not have. Plus, my sweet hubby would not understand that I want to escape and hide in a dark abyss just for the sake of wallowing in sad thoughts. How do you explain that one? How does that make your husband feel? Not good I would imagine. It's not him making me feel this way. It is just my natural state of being. Especially when I think about how my life is chained to going to work at a boring job for the majority of my life. Sure I could quit and find something else to do, but for way less money and well, I don't want to part with the cash because you have to have cash to have fun, not to mention to survive and with the way the economy is... So I will continue with the chains.
I am so negative, I know, but believe me, I try not to be...and it isn't even that I am miserable. It's hard to explain - maybe I am just unsatisfied. This time of the year does not help. By the time you get out of cavey cubicle land and get home, it is dark outside so you can't even enjoy some happy sunshine to perk you up a bit. So I guess that settles it. I HAVE to go to happy hour immediately after work so that I can soak up some happy rays before the sun goes down. Then I can go home and go to bed because what else is there to do?
I am so negative, I know, but believe me, I try not to be...and it isn't even that I am miserable. It's hard to explain - maybe I am just unsatisfied. This time of the year does not help. By the time you get out of cavey cubicle land and get home, it is dark outside so you can't even enjoy some happy sunshine to perk you up a bit. So I guess that settles it. I HAVE to go to happy hour immediately after work so that I can soak up some happy rays before the sun goes down. Then I can go home and go to bed because what else is there to do?
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I know what you're saying. Plan a sushi happy hour with some friends! that cheers me up. and at least the week is half over...
Hey, and JP's fantasy is to shuck everything and work at Taco Bell when he gets upset with work. I dream of getting paid to surf the internet... we all do it. =)